Feb 04, 2021 — 22:20 #
hi <3
three different times today i've scrolled all the way to the bottom of a really good are.na channel and found a website that i made and lemme tell you it's a real good feeling
one of the things that makes feeds so rough is that people are really bad at anticipating what things will be like out of context. you can enjoy all of the individual things that make up the feed, but once they're all jumbled together and stripped of context, the aggregate is almost always worse than any of the individual things that made it
you can tell a lot about somebody's personality & mood from how they write their html
tfw you see a cult and you're like "i could run this better"
beginning to think that writing may be a doomed medium for what i want to accomplish. perhaps performance art may fare better?
pretty sure i feel the same way about booktube as boomers feel about streaming
anyway last night's dreams were good despite being weird and upsetting at times. highlights include:
██████ building me a scavenger hunt
impromptu long distance bike trip
big group discussion about philosophy that was actually productive
fell asleep and read some tweets i wrote in a dream and honestly they're pretty good? surprising
trying to write about how i aim for "lightness" in everything i do, and about how i'm frustrated that it's felt hard to access lightness in writing recently, and… trying to write about that just immediately pulled in a bunch of ideas and concepts that i feel like i have to write about, and the whole thing just gets tangled up
beginning to suspect i may have missed my bus back home :(
taking the hsr! it's so good! electric trains are great!
going to visit a lighthouse today!
smooth face mode activated
it's probably time to shave my beard
today feels expansive
successfully avoided going on a rant about rationalists today, please clap
a wallet is a pretty strange object, philosophically speaking
got a new body wash and i smell v nice now ^^
someone should make a taxonomy of all the different kinds of "Tweets & replies" cringe
got up before 10am and it's still dark out before i even noticed, unfair :(
"im not trans! im not trans!!", i continue to insist as i slowly install vseeface and transform into a vtuber
firewood cafe is moving, very sad :'(
(ok did the thing to fix the stress, now sleep time)
managed to inflict a truly massive amount of stress on myself from an absolutely tiny thing, hell yeah
lmao i tried putting on the sleep with me podcast and it extremely backfired this is some of the funniest shit i've ever heard i feel like i'm high
(oh and btw if melatonin is a placebo please don't go and ruin it for me thx)
not gonna make the mistake this time! i have taken A SHOWER and some MELATONIN and i am going to GO to BED
every day at 3am i'm like "i can totally wrap around my sleep schedule it's gonna be fine" and then every day at 11am i'm like uh wait actually maybe i can't
ugh a great idea came to me in a dream and now i have to do it before i forget
thought shepherd? thought herder?
boy, all i did today was Have Feelings
"never cut towards yourself" is the abstinence only of knife safety
did u know that i'm really cute & clever ?
pretty sure being in a unmanaged forest is the closest i've come to a religious experience
crepe place update: it didn't close it just moved! even closer to me!!
very exciting
thinking about joining another cult just to see what it's like on the inside
i wonder if 無 as a gender is a thing
should go to sleep, but there are a bajillion things i want to do
so instead i will stay awake and do none of them ☺️
pretty sure that the recurring nightmare i've had most frequently at this point is that i'm travelling internationally but didn't think about or properly do quarantine
(i haven't had it that often, i just don't often have recurring dreams in general)
CHVRCHES is good biking through taipei music
thought for a good 30 minutes there that i lost my birth certificate and social security card
sooooo slpy
i really wish it was easier for me to trust fiction
starting to think that anything that shows a "subscriber count" or similar by default is bad technology that should not exist.
thinking about becoming a paper notebook person again
keep having dreams with good plots but then walking up while they're only partway through :(
"risc architecture is gonna change everything"
it's good to know this version doesn't work either
y'know, upon basically any reflection at all, it's pretty obvious what that dream meant
lots of nightmares (?) again today :(
with a theme of like, me treating people badly and then feeling bad about it?
what're u tryin to tell me, brain?
just put my glasses lens in front of my phone camera to get it to focus on a qr code. the future is dumb.
anyway i think i'm slowly turning into a "you should strive to personally know the manufacturer of all the things you use" kind of person and uh supply chains are long and complicated
actually, it seems like both kinds probably give you cancer. so that's cool.
learning about how jute rope is manufactured and it turns out there are two different types of oil that are used: the type that give you cancer, and the type that smells like kerosene. yay!
tom7 is the this old tony of computers
today has really just been a rollercoaster of emotion, huh
i sorta like earthquakes tbh
literally all of the technology around me has been breaking way more than usual recently :(
most insidious part of twitter is how it completely destroyed being earnest tbh. really just almost singlehandedly irony-poisoned an entire generation
i love watching plants grow. coming back day after day, noticing the miniscule changes adding up over time.
pretty fucked up that it's 2022 tbh
i know i love triangle because it's the first place i went clubbing but i love it anyways
triangle is maybe the best club in the world
going to triangle because i fucking love bad decisions
lol literally seconds after i posted that they were like "just go" and waved multiple people through at the same time
my take is that they should make the mrt free after midnight on the new year
uh oh i have been infected with Twitter Brain
it may take me being very drunk to say this but: i am appreciative of tradition. fireworks and celebration are good.
(guess that's what i get for aiming for a reflective nye)
gonna aim for a reflective nye, this time
really gotta figure out that whole replying to people in a timely manner thing :(
making old year's resolutions (plans for tomorrow)
people should make things in order to fall in love. there really isn't another reason.
i know it means a different thing here but it still always is jarring to see swastikas on random signs
extremely shook that parasite and snowpeircer were directed by the same person
like snowpeircer literally only went as far as "woah dude class systems exist isn't that crazy"
and parasite is really good
what changed???
fuck maybe i should go to emf
today will be a writing day
had a nightmare where i was caught up in some scheme (as a fall guy afaict) that joe rogan was running to import cheap insulin to the us but also i had some sort of degenerative neurological condition which i was just finding out about (or maybe was in some loop where i kept finding out about it and then forgetting about it) and i gotta say it really checked a lot of the boxes of terrifying things
it's the 27th it's time to cut it out with the christmas music please thank you
"elsewhere" is such a good name for a place
pretty sure every place called elsewhere is excellent
5:19am, perfect time to start a large new project
cozying up alone tonight with some hot chocolate + hazelnut liquor. good to spend some time with myself after so much christmas partying :)
wow real stressful dreams today huh
all i want from life is to do a lot of drugs and watch videos of math people being excited about math
man drugs are fucking great
playing a drinking game that involves way too much thinking with champagne and it's bad decisions all around
i sorta knew that coming in but it's still funny now that i'm actually here
pretty sure everyone at this party is a lesbian except me lol
today's challenge: get drunk w/o spamming every passing thought to thoughts.page
gender is fake so rly everyone's queer some people just haven't realized it yet
the vibe has moved from ghostbusters theme to gucci gang
lmao this cafe is playing the ghostbusters theme for some reason????
it must be really nice to be able to live your life without constantly building a index in your head of who's a fascist and who isn't, huh
the queer christmas party that i'm going to at the leftist magazine space charges more for men than other people and it never ceases to amaze me the places where market-oriented solutions end up 🤔🤔🤔
the baby in this cafe really likes me
irefox
thought i was getting v3s easy on my second time back at the gym but turns out i just forgot the coloring and they're actually v2s 🙃
i really hope passenger travel on cargo ships comes back, that's the only way i feel like i could morally split time between taiwan and the us
god fucking damnit how did the l*sswr*ng people seo the asshole filter better than sidera did? :(((
re: name capitalization, i do think if i ever end up changing my name i'll go lowercase. just feels like the right thing.
breakfast sandwich rec: two slices of shokupan toasted in a pan with butter, some cheese melted on top (i've been using emmental but you can use whatever you like), kimchi, and an egg. delicious.
missed the train, looked at the countdown sign, 55 seconds to the next one
i love taiwan
ok tonight was great but i do just want to make sure i remember the absolutely incredible neg of some french guy saying that it was "so american" that i went to a bar alone
also, i miss you <3
clubbing is so good!
love the energy of lesbians dancing at triangle
the combination of languages that people are speaking here is heartwarming but also makes me feel so dumb
lmao i went to a bar and the first random person i met is in the same master's program as someone i accidentally ghosted like a year ago 🤐
potentially... going to go clubbing?
i really have too many opinions
noooooo the best crepe place in shida market closed :(((
the moon is excellent today
trying to figure out chinese internet slang makes me feel like such a boomer
clean clean clean clean clean clean!
in a big fuck silicon valley mood this evening
thinking about becoming a mommy blogger
ideas for a style guide for writing my name:
use the same capitalization you would for the beginning of a sentence
use the same capitalization as you use for your own name
(full name is always capitalized tho)
i may have gotten myself excited too early, though
getting out of quarantine!!! in 6.5 hours!!
downside: deep nose pcr test
upside: got to go outside, and it even smelled like rain!
worth it
maybe the most important requirement for dating someone is that they be good at breaking up
maybe i'm not as committed to this quarantine beard as i thought i was
aesthetically i hate minimalism but also i hate having stuff so uh
idk why i'm surprised that ao3 has 155 results for bdg/patrick gill
had a nightmare where i opened obsidian and it suddenly had a "messages" feature built in, and then i opened signal and it had a file-storage feature, and honestly that's pretty much what a lot of computer stuff feels like these days
begging anyone who uses the phrase "let a thousand flowers bloom" to read even a tiny bit of history
gonna be a real twist ending when "eugenics is bad" ends up being the take that gets me cancelled
god dammit i think i just trolled myself into writing the thing
love thinking of random puns and then typing dot tumblr dot com
always good stuff
thinking about putting sidenotes in my sidenotes. this is a bad plan that i will only resist for the moment because it is so technically difficult :|
love how the millennium tower looks like a bismuth crystal in the sunset
my life may be a mess but at least it's a hot mess
wow cute person swabbing my nose recognized me!
eclipse good!
anyone who believes in "days of the week" is just being superstitious if u ask me
"this is not a great intellectual feat"
ppl r cute
did all the texting people! feeling very proud!
bad idea that i want someone to do: cvt bike
no, you don't understand, the tensile strength of the bubblegum is perfectly sufficient for this application
i used to think live resin edibles were placebo but lemme tell you having them again after the shitty east coast edibles sure cleared up that confusion
too much to read, never enough time
everyone is having an unusual day
the chances of me making this flight are extremely low
if i miss my flight because i went one stop too far on the train i will be Unhappy
i fucking love the g train and no one can take that from me
r train has some weird vibes
put on my socks before my pants, that's 無為 according to william burroughs
thinking a lot about pirates these days
funny that the downtown f train calls roosevelt island manhattan
toooooo many thoughts in my brain
it's honestly nice to interact with people in mono relationships sometimes since it's just so much clearer what the boundaries are
i love making out with my friends but sometimes it's simpler to just not have that on the table, y'know?
beat prose as linguistic brutalism?
maybe i should start a religion
love hanging out in tea shops so much
nostalgic early morning smell
just realized that if i want a summer break that means i need to spend the winter working...
i guess i can do that
thinking about vegan directors not shooting on film because it's gelatin based
i am also wary
realizing that sending people messages on the internet is probably one of the highest activation energy things i can do
should probably try to fix that
plans filling in, nice feeling :)
time marches forward
pack for leaving so i'm not super rushed and stressed tomorrow, or spend all day implementing pkcs1.5 rsa padding oracle attack?
difficult decision....
drunk: REALLY GOOD
have not been this drunk in a while and it is really excellent!!!
i Do Not need another blog
my life feels well paced
someone wrote today that i "have lots of feelings about kind of obscure things" and i'm feeling simultaneously attacked and seen
hike was extremely good. didn't even die!
going on a very dumb hike today. if i don't return, know that i died doing what i loved: making bad decisions
is compassion the opposite of shame?
thinking about how legibility politics relates to dating
cursed to have Opinions
it's a shame that "cucked" has racist/patriarchal/alt-right connotations since it's such a perfect word to describe the united states
it's weird to be excited to be back in sf
people really think they can be anti-capitalist and pro-therapy, huh
it would be nice to date someone who isn't enamored by my bullshit
really appreciating how the two main kitchen drawers here are labeled "silly bullshit" and "useful tools"
now that's a good taxonomy
i think the pandemic broke my voice-recognizing ability?
guerrilla ontology
first ever shower beer today. good shit
makin tools like a fuckin octopus or some shit
time 2 go open the feels jar
i forgot how good noodling around on a electric keyboard is! it's really good!
being drunk is good! i should really do that more
solutions beget problems
been feeling really young these days
brain feels sluggish
seems incredibly hard to work in data analysis and not turn into a nihilist
i have so many cute comfy clothes that aren't with me :(
boy i really don't understand how anything works
brisk is a good word
lol @ okc matching me with a bunch of people in sf while i'm in the forest in ny
bit late for that
nature is so good
i really should make a alt thoughts.page but that's still ridiculous
wow people are good!!! very excited to be hanging out with lots of good ones <3
on amtrak again!!! going upstate!!!
update: my stuff does not all fit in my suitcase :|
one funny thing about journaling consistently is that i'm realizing how much of what i do each day i forget by the end of the day
(i guess i knew that from checkins as well but that doesn't really count i don't think)
oh wait i know why it's because i saved all my packing to the morning that i left 🙃
current mood: augh why the fuck did i bring so much crap to nyc and how will i get it all to fit back in my suitcase???
cut my nails super short so i'll actually be able to type again :/
want more wesley parasocial interaction? u should check out my are.na and pretend like i'm texting u those things
very stressed out for a very dumb reason
noticing my self-destructive tendencies so i can lean into them
for a movie that's so mediocre in general the drone hacking scene in interstellar is so good
i wonder if there are any good cooperative hidden role games
being a number theorist just seems so emotionally draining
wintermelon is so tasty
really feels like it's impossible for people to talk to each other anymore
posting cringe is good
uh oh i'm turning into an audiophile 😬
so many wedding photoshoots happening today
ok so this is cringe af but i should really write that thing about megatokyo and kpop as an example of a thing where people's unfounded fears about what the government might do are actually realized by the private sector
got distracted by books, but NOW it's time to get high
time to go get high in the park 🙂
who wants to join a group chat where everyone just posts spoonerisms of random phrases
still in love with the fact that din tai fung has a neocities website with information about all their art
taking the acela!
visiting all my old memories
hate it when the books at the bookstore are in shrinkwrap :(
wish i was worse at noticing ideologies
aesthetic is maybe the only thing that matters in life
trying to journal again. we'll see if it sticks.
was gonna eat meat for the first time in like four months but the line at prince st pizza was just too gd long
once again thinking about becoming a hermit
chopsticks are underrated
i love giving people directions
i really want dry shampoo to work but i'm like 80% sure it's a scam
feeling very satisfied recognizing a lil mandarin in the bubble tea shop today
another random stranger asked me if i'm jewish today, i never really know how to respond
there are too many bugs in prospect park
today's watching while high experience: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lKiBtsHWWEU
it's easier to love people when you don't know them
very impressed with my friend who ended up finding an apartment via tinder hookup
feeling melancholy about thoughts.page getting posted to hacker news
happy to have more people
sad that they're so many tech people
i want the internet to be more nonsense and feelings and art, and less tech
nyc is good
now it's MY TURN to go on a date in dolo and make a bunch of fun quotes for people to hear out of context
god my life is such a mess
i can appreciate the self loathing of someone who says they work on "merkle trees" instead of blockchain tbh
like, yeah bro we all get what you're saying but i'm glad you at least realize you should be ashamed of it
iso someone who thinks about things in a beautiful way
tried to read poetry as scifi, that was a mistake
thinkin about microdosing estradiol
that sleep paralysis feeling so nice going into it
i get the weirdest emails
wtf how did i not realize that the word subliminal comes from liminal?
once again mad about The Apps
OH: "…astral projection" — "in the hospital we call that a dissociative episode"
how are there only four times on twitter anyone's said "whatever-this-is-pilled"????
my "do not trust information that comes from eugenicists" rule looking more and more reasonable every day
once again mad about how beautiful Carmen Maria Machado's writing is
i think it's time to go be hot in nyc
the wikihow aesthetic is incredible
person at the bubble tea shop told me she was "concerned about me" just because i ordered extra boba AND cheese foam :(((
god youtube self-driving car propaganda is so awful
wow didn't realize sqlite3 was in the python stdlib, that rules
dualist/monist dualist
everything is going to be ok
mdma is real good
TODO: make thoughts.page better for drunk ppl
douglas hofstadter would fuckin love ratatouille
i literally always forget how good being drunk is
wow it turns out kareoke is actually good???? amazing
maybe i should get a walkman
i fukin hate spotify
real walls closing in around me feels rn huh
that's probably a good sign but also i'm just... extremely not used to it
wow felt more awkward today than i have in a LONG time
aaaaaaaaaaaa got a bajillion things happening at once
why are phlebotomists always so cute?? unfair
wow i love it when people ask for what they want 🥰
tried to blow vape smoke out my window but it blew right back into my face instead :(
always good when you google the ingredients and the first result is pubchem
really annoying when people say that a tax credit is literally giving people money :/ those are different things!
the new youtube clip feature is basically all the bad parts of xanadu
thinking about how to structure my life more deliberately.
i feel like maybe summer break is important?
ugh people write so well
restmore
augh i can be real garbage sometimes
outside is Good
the 2°C IPCC thing must really be confused by americans not understanding what celsius is, huh
really annoying how siderea keeps being right
pretty sure figuring out how to shower is one of the main blockers for living a fulfilling life for me
thinking about making an alt thoughts.page but that's ridiculous
perfecting the listicle form
apparently we've reached the point in hot vaxxed summer where all anyone in my social circles is thinking about is kink stuff
they should do a baking show where the contestants and judges are all high
honestly fucked up how nice being drunk feels
dark and stormy with squirt instead of ginger beer: better than i expected
i knew that before but i forgot
wow tying people up is fun
we need language to talk about bounded vs non-bounded spectrums
damn they really put all the bangers at the end of Vessel huh
if nothing else, the collapse of the american empire will really simplify my international tax situation
carmen maria machado is so good
i want every flavor of tea :(
OH: "i wanna post on instagram and not give a fuck"
i made a thing that i'm super happy with but will also 100% get me sued if i share it widely and i'm real sad about it
aesthetics
"executive function" is a funny name for it 'cause actual executives have assistants to deal with all thta
markets are incompatible with freedom
luv 2 b stressed
if u don't think ur problems can't see u
i wanna be a hagfish and tie my body in a knot to scratch all my itches at once
fuck i miss new york
so many books, so little time
pretty fucked up that i only got taught about the kkk as a thing that happened in the past when like... it's still around today
The tradition of all dead generations weighs like a nightmare on the brains of the living.
a song is a type of idea
drugs r good
a little salmonella, as a treat
it seems vitally important that i resist the urge to open a bookstore
pandemic nostalgia is gonna be a hell of a thing
i guess succubi probably can't help it
voronoi people
upside down kisses are optimal
just saw someone in a incredibly aesthetic goth getup sitting with & talking frustratedly with a normie dude who i very much hope is getting dumped tonight
why is mulled wine only a christmas/new year thing? it's so good
spreadsheets are peak computer
this cafe is playing real hype up music for 11:30am
boring!
in the land of tiny $18 zines
made out with a stranger!!!
ok so i know this is Problematic but when is bill wurtz gonna come out?
vegan gummies have merits
"it's ridiculous in there" — evy on my brain
friendly earthquake
best buy's ontology is so fucked up
consensus but if you disagree take it to sortition: the perfect decisionmaking structure
san francisco is such a garbage city traffic design wise
like cmon no one is having a good time here
augh fuckin ssl certs
someone needs to make a code review tool that's actually good and also integrates with github
the thing about inventing a guy is that like 80% of the time he exists
i don't know why 4 hour youtube videos are suddenly a thing, but i Don't Like It.
a meme is when something doesn't make sense
computer bad phone bad
stepped in front of a car on purpose since i thought it was self driving but it turns out it was actually just a dude in a SUV with some shit strapped to the roof rack and now i feel bad
pretty sure i'm turning boring
had a bunch of caffeine and no food mrah
parks are so good
anthropogenically introduced species as xrisk?
打麻雀运动 shows significant negative impacts even without introducing new species, once a foreign species is introduced that creates a feedback loop that can be impossible to stop
monocropping is a significant source of tail risk here
do people still worry about locusts? why or why not?
combat anthropology
don't you think it matters when we wish our friends the best?
why haven't they made another bisexual season of are you the one? ridiculous.
some friends of mine moved to my neighborhood recently, and i just ran into one of them at a cafe and it feels so nice! having local friends is real good :)
thinking about becoming a reply guy
if you water a plant with tea, is that cannibalism?
cleaned my bathroom! ✨
contrarian take: the weather is a excellent topic of conversation
thinking about masculinity and domesticity
gotta make some aliases
thinking about trying to be a famous youtube commenter
overhearing conversations on the train is so much fun
getting used to the rhythms of taipei
i should really launch thoughts.page for real, but it's scary :|
i am DOING an ERRAND!
put my brain in a weird state again
dongmen is so cozy
i wanna send songs back and forth with someone
home is where you host your servers
regarding my previous thought, i would like to clarify that scientists are fundamentally hot.
i wanna date a hot scientist
ok, all set up on thoughts.page now :)
theater like a play, or theater like a war?
i have three chat apps installed with green icons and that is Too Many
timezones are such a nightmare
two tone sirens are so good
the cafe that’s open to midnight was closed, so i found one that’s open until 4am instead 😮
unreasonably happy today tbh
what’s the opposite of forever?
i think the people next to me in this restaurant are on a date and it’s very cute :)
i’m not hungry but i want to eat
beautiful weather today
can i still talk to normal people? tune in for the exciting conclusion!
a thing can have more than one cause
h y p e r
new life goal:
disappear from the internet
cops if your quick
my sinuses were clogged for like 5 minutes after i woke up from a nap and it’s actually so good, i get to ride the high of the feeling of my sinuses NOT being clogged for hours afterwards
thinking about corduroy bedsheets
the nice part about having a tiny apartment is that it’s super easy to clean
brainfeel
languages are so interesting!
i am easily enticed by dictionaries
the freaky thing about potato chips in taiwan is they taste exactly like the picture on the package
thinking about how i say “new york” when people ask me where i’m from.
golden gate park is the ideal park imo
honestly fucked up the number of people’s voices i recognize
i would like to understand LA
was feeling bad for a while, but i think i’m starting to feel better now. things are good.
honestly unfair that you can’t just take one big shower every week and just keep being clean
oh no mosquito bite on the sole of my foot :(((
making a spreadsheet, hell yeah
dns-blocked a bunch of the bad attention sucking websites on my computer, and disabled the apps on my phone. feels nice, although idk how long i’ll be able to make it last.
bring back http basic auth
all money is free money
i just really love networks
thinking about the metrocard aardvark
v i b i n g
love 2 feel bad
one of the few things i miss from america are the enormous cups
excited to get a new taipei city library card! they have a 24-hour lounge/study area apparently, super excited to check it out!
mao zedong thot
mushrooms are nice because they’re both philosophically pleasing and delicious
really loving how many japanese-style bakeries there are in taiwan. and taiyaki from street stands, yum :)
my new umbrella has a light blue underside, as though i should pretend the skies aren’t grey.
who is supporting who?
til that there isn’t a landmass at the north pole? i thought there was, no idea how that got into my head.
started closing on an apartment wow!
wow it feels so bizzare and good to be in a coffeeshop
a text adventure game but all of the items are described in the style of Amazon product names
currently flirting with someone on a dating app exclusively by sending gifs back and forth and it is StReSsFuL
wow big earthquake tonight. biggest i’ve ever felt, even growing up in cali
about to go outside for the fisrt time in two weeks hooray!
just under 24 hours until i can leave my hotel room 😮
thinking about how to build spaces for thinking together
slowly orbiting around something good
i am a dumb
i would really like to go outside
ooof stayin up tooo laaattteee
thinking about whether an indie dating site is possible. i used to think it wasn’t, but i’m leaning the other way now. just gotta shift around what your goals are.
hot take: complaining about art is inherently a category of art
love 2 shave those yaks
i cut my fingernails too short and now typing feels weird :(
it’s weird that the clouds look the same in taipei as they do in san francisco
getting really excited to be working on making a better world
hello, taipei
heading to taipei. feels weird.
clouds are pretty
in the liminal space of moving. i do not like it.
fondly remembering taking the bus up to manchester, NH, having a stranger recognize me by my tshirt, and going to red arrow diner with them
saw a flock of around 100 crows envelop the top of salesforce tower today
my phone screen got cracked and i have no idea how it happened :(
idea for a game: a RPG mimicking real life, where you play as a random person, your starting location/profession/social standing drawn out of a distribution reflecting that of all humans on earth.
i have a new mole on my neck and it is Annoying
i had so much caffeine and i’m still tired -.-
i got caught out in the rain for the first time this season. i love california’s version of cold weather — not cold enough to be really miserable, but just enough to make coming inside after a long walk feel really cozy. it’s nostalgic as well, which makes it doubly cozy.
got some rollerblades. went two miles, only fell on my ass twice, pretty good imo.
i had a bunch of caffeine today and it’s extremely good
interesting that bubble tea has the reverse of a normal heat gradient — the hot boba is at the bottom, while the ice floats to the top.
thinking about the process of commodification
feeling really good; fighting to make sure it stays that way while i have the energy
considering becoming the sort of person who uses my custom spaced repetition system to remind me to shower
i’m always surprised when physically large things aren’t extremely expensive
it’s sorta fun how i made this thoughts page right after covid started happening, like a little diary of my isolation time
thinking about “how do you know if someone is a vegan? they’ll tell you” as one of the most blindingly obvious and annoying examples of sampling bias
do i remember who i am? does anyone? we’re all mirrors, in one way or another.
this covid shit really sucks
gonna start calling cinnamon rolls bread rollups
“are you morally obligated to feel X” is such a bizarre question
hmm i wonder why i feel bad it couldn’t possibly be that i had a bunch of caffeine and barely any food today
thinking about how good the TMBG wiki is
trying to think of a definition of a state that categorizes the united states government as a state, but doesn’t categorize google or the NRA as a state, and also is coherent with typical libertarian arguments about private organizations being more effective than states
kcal/hectare-day is such a strange unit
man it seems like there’s rat drama happening and i sort of want to know what’s going on but also really don’t
i’m pretty sure that the concept of eggs going bad is fake
aw man the usps site is down :(
well today is just the most completely detached from reality day yet, thats cool
managed to put my brain in an extremely weird state
i definitly have a twitter crush and this seems bad but i’m just gonna lean into it
my new and Extremely Good music organization system is just keeping a bunch of bandcamp and youtube tabs that people have sent me in a browser tab and randomly ruffling through it whenever i want to listen to something
cleaning the fridge has a really great effort/reward tradeoff
considering advocating for a new all-ice-cream diet
my perception of time, on a micro scale, is completely fucked up. not sure if this is new or not.
i made a bunch of cornbread but then i ate it all and now i don’t have any more and i’m sad
wow boba guys in hayes valley is just straight up not very good? i miss gong cha :(
thinking about explicitly being vegetarian (sans gelatin, rennet, and maybe some fish-based sauces, probably)
pretty fucked up that san francisco is like… 50 square miles
family-owned businesses are just nepotism with a positive connotation
oh i guess i should update the timezone for thoughts! now in pacific time :)
not having a microwave is really annoying. microwaves must’ve been an absolute gamechanger for leftovers.
thinking about how taking your own advice can often be a bad idea — it’s easy to have advice that’s very useful for most people, but the reason you have that advice is because you implement it too much in an extreme. being extreme about it allows you to see very clearly the effects of the advice, but it can often have negative effects that implementing a less extreme version wouldn’t have.
TIL that “peewee” is an official egg size according to the USDA
spending a bunch of money on cooking supplies and realizing that it comes out to the same as like… 2 weeks of getting delivery every day
i really want my bike to arrive in SF :(
i guess they still do happen? but it seems like they aren’t what they once were.
i wish world fairs were still a thing
2020 is folding my laundry for the month and only finding four pairs of socks
youtube drama channels are tabloids for zoomers and honestly i love it
i want reaction videos to the big tech congressional hearing to be a thing
hyped for the 2020 census results tbh
contemplating the symbolism of cleaning your glasses
fucking love it when i get to use nyquist sampling theorem tbh
a moth just kissed my head
thinking a lot about games that give you a real choice in actions, but manage to invert the moral polarity of the actions that you’ve taken by withholding/showing given bits of information later. can this be done well in a way where there is truly no canonically “true” interpretation, where all information is mistrusted? it seems hard, we have a bias towards believing information that is revealed later in stories over information that is revealed at the beginning. maybe subverting that by having a cliche twist reveal, then having a second reveal that makes the first one clearly false would communicate a similar idea?
not really, though. i want to communicate that any action could be morally correct given the right viewpoint, making all options unsatisfying.
maybe that’s a bit mean, though.
i listened in
yes i’m guilty of this, you should know this
i broke down and wrote you back before you had a chance to
forget forgotten
i am moving past this, giving notice
i have to go
yes i know the feeling, know you’re leaving
honestly amazed at the sheer number of different ways that minecraft villagers manage to be problematic
there is one good scene in Interstellar (2014) like 15 minutes in when they chase the drone in their car and hack it, and the entire movie is downhill from there. but that scene is so good.
hair dryer reviews are funny because the best-case scenario is there are 50 reviews that are like “this is great” and like three that are like “two stars: best hair dryer i’ve ever use, but after two months of use it started an electrical fire and burned down my entire house”
tbh, it’s astonishing to me that kanye is only polling at 2%
making funny noises at someone back and forth is basically like having sex
apparently custom ASMR videos where the person says your name is a thing and i looked one up that has my name and it feels Extremely Weird
i discovered that you can change out the nosepads on glasses for nicer ones and this is absolutely lifechanging
reading a bunch of democratic party bylaws today, it’s fucking committees all the way down
you know you’ve fucked up when you start thinking about writing an open letter…
i came up with a really good tweet but it’s about a thing that happened like 3 years ago so i can’t tweet it :(
thoughts got a glow-up :)
been having so many dreams-within-dreams recently. wonder what’s up with that.
i’ve been running a git checkout for the past 5 hours…
“research” vs “exploration”
different things, easy to confuse.
i’m becoming a person who cares about typography and it’s terrible
tbh it’s pretty unfair that docs only look queer on women
massive spike in “what the hell am i doing with my life everything is a terrible decision” recently. do not recommend.
i’m reading a bunch of studies on tool use in animals and it’s really great when they mention that a particular animal doesn’t appear to take into account some property of a tool when trying to determine which tool to use and then they also just casually mention at the very end that humans also fail the same test
“knowledge worker” but “knowledge criminal” instead
there have been an alarming number of bugs in my house recently
thinking about how the “nyc is digging mass graves because of the number of deaths from coronavirus” news cycle was like two days then everybody stopped talking about it
nothing quite like looking at housing in san francisco to remind you what an absolute nightmare world we live in
a little annoyed at how hard it is to build a singlethreaded web server in rust
we’ve got a long way to go with this whole computer thing
auuuughhh why the hell did i decide to listen to this clubhouse audio
i biked 38 miles today.
upper manhattan is very pretty.
til my daily bike ride is 6 miles. that’s a lot longer than i thought!
i bought 7 tshirts online (all the same shirt from the same store) and they shipped them as one order of one shirt and one order of 6 shirts, scheduled to arrive on the same day.
why.
<3 thunder
i’m gonna see a friend in person for the first time in many months! very exciting.
wow, i just feel really bad. that’s cool.
really got a lot of whiplash from being prepared for a nice chill social hangout and instead getting several hours of stressful work
feeling lonely and running through my list of people to call, each one an even worse idea than the previous
also, SSC is definitely one of those acronyms that has multiple very different meanings :p
i’m really amused by the SSC discourse, but really should not comment on it…
why on earth do i ever answer my phone, it’s never something good
i want to go for a nightime bike ride but my bike lights don’t arrive for another two days :(
face mask selfies are cute, tbh
bikes are so good
something i miss dearly about going to physical grocery stores is being able to select my avocados so that they’ll ripen one after the other, and i’ll always have an avocado that’s just the right amount of ripe.
thinking about the aesthetics of privacy of your image/voice vs data - cameras and microphones are viscerally creepy, other forms of data collection aren’t. does it make sense to weight the things that are visceral as highly as we do? i can see how it would, but it’s hard to think about.
the problem with living in NYC is that any impulse purchase i want to make can be justified with “well, it’s only N weeks of rent”
increasingly looking like NYC had a ""“competent”"" coronavirus response compared to everywhere else in the US which is just fucking horrifying
i really do not get how Matthew Yglesias became a thing
so apparently all of the not feeling anything for the past three months was just saving it all up for today
tbh really not looking forward to anarchism suddenly being in vogue
i am not smart
well it’s nice to remember what working hard is like. been a solid like 3 years since i’ve done this.
ahhh, the “lay around naked until i finally get around to getting an air conditioner” part of the summer
i just wanna make out with my friends again
ramekin is a pretty fucked up word. that’s all.
my beard is long enough that i can stick a comb in it and it just sits there
i love that “zoomer” is unironically a thing now
luv 2 see notifications that my friends are on signal. fuck em up.
took a walk through downtown brooklyn today. surprised at how normal everything feels.
ugh, my bike got stolen :(
i hope whoever took it needs it more, but also just ugh, this means i’m going to need to wait a lot longer before i can bike again :( :(
i don’t know if what i’m doing is helping, but at least it’s something.
feeling hopeful for the first time in a while
well, seems like no more 2am walks for a little while
the way that youtube sponsorships have destroyed the concept of having a conclusion in a lot of video essays is really sad to me
i’m really, really tired, and i don’t know why. have a few hypothesises but really not looking forward to having to go figure out wtf my body is doing.
i found out a very funny thing today but i can’t share it anywhere :(
i think the way to fix twitter is to just immediately and permanently ban anyone with more than 1k followers
i feel like the ""“patronage”"" model is pretty fucked up in a ton of ways, but also it seems reasonable to work in the system that exists? idk
thinking about just paying some writers i like to write things and making a little book/magazine of it? i think that this is not actually very expensive for a tech person to do, i sort of wonder why there isn’t more of this.
my bike shipped! super excited :)
i really wish lobste.rs was better than it is
taking a vitamin d pill at night feels wrong, because vitamin d is sunlight and it’s dark outside and i should be sleeping
when will google let me give them money to just never see the recommended youtube videos
huh, did a double take seeing a “log in with TikTok” button for the first time today
my bag of sour patch kids had a piece of licorice in it by accident, and licorice covered with citric acid is actually pretty tasty
my pile of books is somewhat overwhelming
luckily two decades of toxic masculinity has made burying my feelings instead of talking about them pretty easy, so i’ve got that going for me
so it turns out that all the people who i can call up when i’m sad go to bed at fuckin 8pm
haven’t slept which definitely means it’s time for caffeine
i cleaned my glasses for the first time in months and it was a truly magical experience
https://www.sheldonbrown.com/ is so good
the distinction between knowing what you’re getting yourself into and realizing what you’re getting yourself into is underappreciated
way too tempted to just write my own rust web framework
using comparisons to cars when talking about risks should be banned
everybody complains that lisp has too many parens, but then they freak out when you go full RPN
starting to think that telling people to only pay attention to reputable sources has resulted in people turning their brains off when they are reading things on reputable sources.
reputable sources can be (and in fact, often are) wrong!
i want to socialize more but i’m so tired
ugh i’m so tired
https://hanabi.site is online :)
i used the word “extant” in a sentence that wasn’t contrived and i feel very fancy
starting to think that the web has reached two local maxima during its entire existence: GeoCities, and jQuery.
oops i forgot to sleep :(
i want to make a webring
i’m really glad that i decided to do NGW things
amazed at how long the “a little X, as a treat” meme has stuck around
random 2am thoughts:
the utility that i get from a book is not reduced by a book having factually incorrect information, so when i review a book for other people, factually incorrect information only is bad if it paints a story i don’t like. this seems ok to me.
things in the US seem like they could get very bad very quickly? i think when considering bad outcomes in the US i’ve been overestimating the likelihood of economic collapse (still very likely), and underestimating the likelihood of other bad things, which are less globally correlated than economic collapse.
legibility politics is something that i want to think about a lot more. there seem like there are really fundamental connections here with language and power and other things that i’ve spent a lot of time thinking about.
hmmmmm is it time to retreat from all human contact again?
food should cost a lot more than it does
ok i gueeessss i maybe have a couple crushes on internet people? imo that doesn’t really count though.
it’s international tell your crush day and somehow i don’t think i have any crushes right now? i blame the pandemic :(
disappointed that you technically can’t send an A3 zine through the mail as a postcard (it’s too thick, so it counts as a letter)
TIL that “Mailpiece Design Analyst” is a job
ok it was too weird i changed back
wearing a different pair of clothes than i usually do for the first time in more than two months. feels weird.
weird feeling when someone meets me and my brother (separately) and their first question is “so, uh, what was your upbringing like?”
adding a book to my reading list just because the title has been stuck in my head since it first came out a year ago
fuck i miss climbing
aaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhh it’s finally reading outside in the hammock weather
(probably has been for a while, and i just hadn’t noticed since i’m not going out during the daytime)
pretty convinced that “minimalist” software just means software that’s written by an asshole
prediction: in ~50 years, starlink smears and similar formations will be a thing that people appreciate and think looks good - it’ll follow an arc similar to debates about the Eiffel Tower.
(this doesn’t mean that starlink is good btw, it’s bad because centralizing communications infrastructure is bad, and people’s aesthetic concerns are also valid. but aesthetic concerns will change over time, and once people are used to seeing smears like starlink, that will become part of “natural beauty”)
i should maybe think a bit more about how much i optimize to maximize other peoples yearning for me…
Right Round The Clock is the song, i was getting it confused for Mad World, which it references:
> I’m feeling kinda crazy, I’m feeling kinda mad
> The dreams in which we’re famous are the best I’ve ever had
> I’m feeling kinda crazy, I’m feeling kinda mad
> The dreams in which we’re famous are the best I’ve ever had
> You’re the best I’ve ever had
> You’re the best I’ve ever had
ah i found the song! it wasn’t actually a remix it just has lyrics that conflict with a much more famous song
fuck a song that i have stuck in my head from some youtube rabbit hole weeks ago was apparently a remix so i can’t find it by searching the lyrics and now i’ll probably never find it again :(
it’s gonna be funny to go to the climbing gym when this is all over and just watch everybody be complete trash at climbing
i like writing code, but i don’t like having code
thinking about getting really into parsers
hmmm i just emailed a @gmail.com address that i haven’t interacted with before with the word “sex” in the title and a link as part of the body text, what are the chances that they’re ever going to see my message…
huh, i just now realized that the reason that i always mix up it’s and its for possessives is because you use an apostrophe to indicate that a name is possessive, but that’s more of a special case than anything.
remembering when someone found a bug in some code i wrote when i was at google, but was like “i don’t think the bug could be here, this file is copyright google so it’s probably right”
thinking about running a rss-only blog
because of course i need more places to write things…
<3 thunder
you know that programming advice is good when you have to scroll the wayback machine all the way back to 2001 to see it
APIC and ACPI being entirely different things which interact with each other in subtle and annoying ways is some strong chaotic evil energy
the web is bad
wasm is magical
does my version of thoughts support linebreaks?
maybe?
content-addressable types
i figured out how to make my hair be straightthis is a gamechanger
huh, i didn’t realize that Notes on the Synthesis of Form and A Pattern Language were by the same person
i want a “calendar”, but instead of being a calendar it’s a constraint solver/optimizer that i can feed arbitrary constraints into (both binary, like “i need to visit this store, which is open at these times” and scalar, like “i want to assign X weight to getting my quota of exercise in”). then the calendar part is that it also speaks ical so it can know about less flexible events and show everything in one place.
i guess one change in my politics in the past ~4 years is that i think i basically support a californian independence movement at this point (and if it includes cascadia, even better)
i don’t check twitter for one day and my housemate offhandedly mentions the Six State Council coming together to form their own govenrment. i ask if the nation-state of California is part of it, but no, they’re part of the separate “West Coast Pact”reality is a bad sci-fi novel, but hey, at least i’ll get to see the collapse of the american empire within my life ¯_(ツ)_/¯
strongly considering becoming anti-floating-point
starting to think that a lot of liberals really hate the idea of trump, but not like, any specific thing that he’s done
cannot stop thinking about this tweet.
my crappy but convenient earbuds broke, so now i’m using my nice but sort of annoying headphones, and wow does everything sound so much nicer
ugh i got up at 11am for a thing but it turns out it’s at 1pm
starting to get a little annoyed at my sleep schedule - it sucks to wake up and have no idea what time it is.
there’s something special about writing a proxy - at first, it just works and is completely magical, and then you can start dipping your toes into the stream of bits going past, mucking with things here and there and seeing what changes, slowly understanding the structure of the protocol going past you. it’s a good way to understand a system.
fuck how is it 4am already
ok i wrote my own varint parser, that wasn’t that hard
gotta love finding a library that “parses varints,” does not specify what type of varint it parses, and lists as example applications, three different protocols which all use slightly different varint specifications…
slowly coming to terms with the fact that i am bad at writing computer programs
started watching the most recent Well There’s Your Problem, and getting really frustrated at how bad leftists can be at… not being wrong about things. there’s this whole generation of Chapo Trap House/Mike Gravel/Well There’s Your Problem style leftism that seems to be pretty effective drawing people in, but does so by just lying and/or not bothering to research anything and just assuming all facts line up with their worldview, and it’s just really frustrating to me :/you don’t need to make shit up to convince people of leftist ideas, the truth works well enough for that.
having lots of thoughts about how credentialism relates to the current covid-19 situation. i still don’t believe in credentialism, but i do believe that it doesn’t make sense to trust inexperienced people. it’s hard to communicate that distinction, though, especially given the nebulousness of what counts as “experience”i think it’s somehow tied in my mind to the sre org at goog, and how that was so full of people who had taken weird paths to get where they ended up, and were really great at their jobs because of it. i’m sad that that’s not something we see in other fields much, especially given the value that i think there is in applying the sre skillset to other domains.
uh, it’s a little strange that that didn’t prompt for my password, but ok….
if this works, then it means that the integration with my password manager worked :o
i can write thoughts from vim! that’s cool :)
testing writing text in a file!
links and shit maybe work?
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